Excerpt from THE
DEBUTANTE'S SECOND CHANCE
Window Over the Sink, Taft Tribune: Sometimes I miss
having heroes. All the ones I knew when I was young seem to have
developed feet of clay and leapt without conscience from the pedestals
I placed them on. But today I lay on an uncomfortable cot and gave
blood. I looked around at the people who gave their time freely,
at the others who gave their blood just as freely. I saw a minister,
a newspaper editor, a registered nurse who was spending her day
off inserting slender needles into veins, half the Taft High School
baseball team still wearing their practice jerseys. And I realized
there are heroes all around us, and they don't need to
be on pedestals because they don't have time for that kind of nonsense.
Landy
Wisdom didn't look at all the way Micah remembered her from high
school. Her hair had been the color of sunlight then, her eyes like
the darkest of the lilacs that grew in studied profusion in her grandmother's
side yard. Her figure had been lithe and nubile in her designer jeans
and silk blouses and cashmere blazers. Her clothes hadn't been bought
at JC Penney or Kmart like most everyone else's, but on shopping
trips to Cincinnati and Louisville. She'd been, in a town without
a social scale, a debutante. Her grandmother had owned the brewery
and was one of the few people in town who had servants. Landy's boyfriend
had been the high school quarterback, the son of Taft's best-known
attorney, who'd gone on to stardom at Notre Dame.
But there had been
more to Landy than that. Her best friend had been Jessie Titus, whose
grandmother had kept house for old Mrs. Wisdom. Landy had aided with
her grandmother's charities, but she'd been hands-on help. She'd
washed dishes at dinners, cleaned up after dances and walked every
inch of every walkathon ever held in Taft.
Micah remembered talking
to her once as she slogged through rain for crippled children. She
hadn't had a raincoat because she'd tossed it over the shoulders
of the minister's wife, and mud splashed up her legs as she walked.
"Who are you?" he'd
demanded. He'd been so angry then, furious at the "haves" in
what he was finding to be a "have-not" world. The fact
that Landy Wisdom didn't fit into his idea of a "have" made
him even angrier. People who had it all didn't share things when
that sharing got them wet, cold and muddy.
"I'm just Landy," she'd
said quietly, a hurt look in her eyes, "and I'm sorry you don't
like me."
Twenty years later, standing in line in his London
Fog raincoat and watching Landis Wisdom as she wrote down information
for the Red Cross blood bank, Micah felt a niggle of shame because
he'd put that look in her eyes. Good writing and solid investments
had made him into one of the "haves" he'd so despised,
and along with the money had come the realization that there really
wasn't that much difference in people.
But he still wondered who
she really was, and what had happened to the debutante he remembered.
The hair color had deepened to the hue of honey, the eyes to violet.
She wore a navy blue sweater with faded jeans and no makeup, no jewelry
other than tiny pearls in her ears, not even polish on what appeared
to be chewedto-the-quick fingernails. Her figure had thickened a
little over the years, but not much. She still looked nice.
But not
like a debutante. Not like the richest girl in town. She'd evidently
not jumped on the plastic surgery bandwagon, because small lines
had carved themselves into the skin at the corners of her eyes, at
the outer edges of her mouth, in her forehead between her eyebrows.
She looked every minute of her thirty-six years. "Are you a
first-time donor?"
He realized with a start that the husky voice
he heard was hers and that she was speaking to him.
"First time
here," he said, suddenly remembering why he
was in the basement of the Taft United Methodist Church. "I
just moved here two weeks ago, but I have a Red Cross card somewhere." He
rummaged in his wallet, feeling as clumsy and foolish as he had on
that walkathon.
"Well, I'll be damned." Another voice,
softer and filled with laughter, made him look for its source.
"Look
up, Landy, and see who you're waiting on."
"Don't swear
in church, Jess. Our grandmothers will come back and haunt us." But
Landy looked up, and Micah saw recognition leap into her eyes. They
were like pansies, not violets. Dark and mysterious and tragic.
"Micah
Walker." She sounded glad to see him, and the welcome
in her voice opened up a warm place inside him, a place he wasn't
about to look into. "I heard you and your dad moved back. You
bought the Tribune?"
He nodded, and Jessie said, "About
time someone bought that rag. Maybe you can turn it into a real newspaper."
Her
voice made Micah remember she was there, standing beside Landy's
chair, and he extended his hand. "Jessie, it's good to see you." Her
name tag said "Jessie Brown" and he remembered that she
was a widow. "Micah, is that your card?" Landy asked. "I'd
love to talk to you, but there's someone waiting."
"Oh,
sorry." Micah turned to apologize to the person behind
him, recognized his father and grinned instead before returning his
attention to Landy. "It's all right, it's just some old coot."
She
grinned back at him, the expression having more of an effect on him
than Ethan's thump between his shoulder blades. He thought abstractedly
that the debutante wasn't entirely gone; Landy's front teeth were
beautifully but undeniably capped.
After Jessie had taken a pint
of his blood, the volunteers in the church kitchen gave him a ham
salad sandwich and a glass of juice. "Wait
over there a bit," she'd said, "till you get your legs
back."
He exchanged pleasantries with the volunteers, recognizing
Mrs. Burnside, his high school geometry teacher, among them. Another
donor passed behind him and sat at the end of the table, muttering
thanks to Mrs. Burnside when she brought him his sandwich and drink.
Micah continued talking to the woman on his right, whose name was
Jenny and who owned the café downtown, appropriately named
Down at Jenny's. But he felt the hair on the back of his neck standing
on end and knew he was being stared at. He looked toward Landy's
table, but she was busy. In profile, her face looked pale, and he
saw that the hands that shuffled the papers on the table were shaking.
Frowning, he looked toward the end of the table.
Lucas Trent hadn't
changed much in twenty years. He was bigger, his florid complexion
redder, but he was still handsome, wearing the patina of the city
as surely as he did his expensive suit. Micah wondered, not for the
first time, what had kept Trent in Taft when he obviously held the
two-stoplight town in the lowest kind of contempt.
The attorney used
to stand at the fence at football games. "Come
on, you dumb farm boys," he'd shout. "Protect your quarterback." The
quarterback, of course, being Blake Trent, Landy's boyfriend and
Lucas's son.
"Mr. Trent." Micah nodded a polite greeting.
"Walker." Trent
returned the nod. "Heard you were
back in town. Do you plan on staying long?"
"Yes, sir. I've
bought the Taft Tribune."
"Made a success of yourself,
have you." It wasn't a question,
and Trent's expression was cold and dark.
"Next thing we know,
you'll buy a house on River Walk and start socializing with my erstwhile
daughter-in-law."
"Erstwhile?" That wasn't a word used
much in places like Taft. Most people would have said exdaughter-in-law or son's
former wife.
The simplicity of speech had been only one of
the things about Taft he'd been happy to leave. He'd found the
town stifling as a teenager and had been happy to shake its river
valley dust from his feet when he went away to college. Graduation
had landed him a job in Lexington, Kentucky, and he'd loved it
there.
"You mean you haven't caught up with the gossip yet?" Trent's
face was drawn and angry, the kind of anger that comes with suffering. "No
hint of scandal has passed under your journalistic nose?"
Micah
shifted impatiently in his chair, wondering what was taking his father
so long. "I try not to deal in scandal unless it
involves hard news."
"Oh, it was hard all night." The
attorney shuddered, and pain crossed his face. "Blake's dead," Trent
said,
"and Landis is the reason why."
Landy helped put the church
basement in order, trying not to watch the tableau across the room.
Even so, she saw Micah's face harden and knew Lucas had told him.
Micah would believe whatever Lucas said. He'd never liked her anyway,
would be eager to accept that she was not only a poor little rich
girl but a murderer as well.
"Landy." Mrs. Burnside's voice
reached her. "Would
you help me in here, dear?"
"In here" was the kitchen.
She'd have to walk past the table where Micah sat with his father
and Lucas Trent and feel their baleful gazes burning holes into the
back of her sweater. She wondered why it was the unhappy things,
like painful memories and people thinking badly of you and the need
for donated blood, that seemed to be unending. Happy spaces in time
were always fleeting.
"Don't slump." Jessie's voice came
softly. She stood beside Landy, pulling on her coat. "Stand
tall and smile like there's nothing that could ever reach you. Don't
make me whack your spine to straighten you up the way Grandma used
to."
Landy stretched up tall just the way Evelyn Titus had taught
her. "See
you later, Jess. Kiss the kids for me." She drew her mouth into
a smile and moved across the room, going to the sink to dry the pitchers
used for juice.
"Good turnout today," said Mrs. Burnside.
Landy nodded,
trying to think of something to say.
"So, how do you like being
retired, Mrs. Burnside?"
"You can call me Nancy, dear. We're
not in geometry class anymore. Retirement's all right. I miss the
kids, especially those few every year who soaked up information like
a sponge." She tilted her
head and lowered her voice. "Like that Walker boy. He wasn't
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